Usually people think a soul mate is ur perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soulmate is a mirror, the person who shows u everything that’s holding u back, the person who bring u to ur attention so u can change ur life.
A true soul mate is probably the most important person u’ll ever meet, because they tear down ur walls and smack u awake. But to live with a soulmate forever is not possible because it too painful. They come into ur life just to reveal another layer of urself to u, and then they leave.
Being a victim is supposed to set you free; it acquits you of any agency, any sense of responsibility to the person who did you harm.
You cannot make yourself have a flashback, nor will you have one unless you are emotionally ready to remember something. Once remembered, the memory can help you to face more of the truth.
The thing that most people didn’t understand, the more you face the truth, the angrier you will probably become. You have a right to be angry about being sexually abused. You have a right to be angry with the perpetrator, regardless of who it was, how long ago the sexual abuse occurred, or how much he/she has changed..
Comforting me sitting in those corner benches looking straight to me, taking my hand as if his hand glides down my arm, folds over my hand.
His fingers lace with mine, palms kissing, as if two bone-and-flesh flaps that hadn’t complicated their simple love by speaking or thinking, as if the pulses of our wrists beating together…
Lying on my bed,
Having sleepless night
Where I wonder,
Was it my mistake 2 love u?
Maybe my love wasn’t enough 4 u..
“I’ll tell you now. That silence almost beat me. It’s the silence that scares me. It’s the blank page on which I can write my own fears.
The spirits of the dead have nothing on it. The dead one tried to show me hell, but it was a pale imitation of the horror I can paint on the darkness in a quiet moment.”
We are still ”BEST – FRIENDS”
Instead of ” Best Friends”..
Its just that now we don’t care
About One – Another…
”FRIENDS” were replaced by ”BEST FRIENDS”..
”BEST FRIENDS” are replaced by ”BOYFRIENDS”….